Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Today is the first day.....

I have ever blogged. I don't know how dedicated I will be but I am fascinated by the whole concept so will give it a whirl.

I am in a "dither" (what a quaint, but cool word) about events right now at home. Being a teenager seems so much more difficult today than it used to be. For certain the high school my daughter goes to is nothing like the high school I went to and the challenges she faces on a daily basis are nothing like those I faced. The scariest thing I ever faced was being afraid to go to my locker because some girls were mad at me for supposedly talking to a boy they were interested in. My daughter sees kids snort coke, have sex, grope her with both hands in the hall way....I guess it is no wonder she doesn't love school. I so wanted her to have the high school life I had....innocent fun, Friday night football games, pep rallies, decorating for dances....that just isn't going to happen for her. And I feel robbed. I guess when I get gut level honest that is the real truth. I feel robbed. I wanted her to experience that yes, but I also wanted to experience it again through her. Oh brother. Parenting is not for sissies.